January 4, 2008
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Ok so here goes: over the last 2.5months I have been severely depressed which at first was a good thing because I lost about 7lbs. Now, I have put those 7lbs back on plus an additional 12. Nice. 19 frickin lbs. In like 2 months. That is so gross. My clothes don't fit. I look like I have an inner tube around my middle. My thighs! I don't even want to mention those. I feel all loose and jiggly. It is sinking me even more into a depression. It is a vicious cycle. The more depressed, the less I work at myself. I need help to get out of this. I am sinking.
Work depresses me. I want to quit. Both jobs. Then I can focus on getting ready to move.
My family. Ugh. Never ending stress there.
So, you probably guessed my resolutions: be a better person, lose weight, floss at least 3 times a week, drink my water daily, pay off debt, determined to be happy.
So thats me in a nutshell. Same as last year, I think. This is my year. I can feel it. HA!
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thanks for the comment!!
i'm so sorry you feel so bad, i hope it gets better soon!!
good luck with everything!!
take care!!
<3<3
Aw, I'm sorry about the gain. It is hard when you lose weight to maintain - sometimes the body just rebels and demands to be fed. The winter months are worse too....the hibernation thing that is ingrained and the lack of sunlight, it just piles up on us and makes weight gain almost inevitable.
Give yourself a break and look forward to spring!!
When are you planning the move?
I am trying to figure out the best way for me to be comfortable so hubby can be happy too ;^) - But it is hard to be comfortable when I dont feel good about my body.
HUGS!!!
(((Big warm Hugs)))
Kick that depressions ass! One day at a time.. I hope you feel better soon. It sucks to gain what you've lost..Oh I have been there..and it made me so so depressed..like the vicious cycle you described. This will be YOUR YEAR!!!! We ahve to make our Year!! We will meet our goals..we will. I'm here for you..I am still nor giving up on my UGW 110..Though it sucks to not enjoy food anymore sometimes.. I really can barely eat anymore..or else I gain. Good God...why does food have to be my enemy.. healthy stuff gets boring after a while..BUT...anyhow..it does taste better than most junk food anyways.... blah blah..don't know where I was going with that xoxoxox
Hey girl. Sorry things are so bad right now. I guess we have to really put the effort in this year if we want to turn things around for the better.
I was taking my garbage out today and thinking about my gut as the wind blew my tshirt against it.(I wondered if other people could see it protruding). And I thought to myself; do I remember what it's like to be thin? YES> Did I love that feeling? YES> Do I really want to feel that way again? YES> Then what the hell is stopping me??
There is no reason in the world why we can't focus, practice discipline and just fucking do it. I am as frustrated as you are, obviously, and I'm just not going to do this shit anymore.
I'm here for you.
Karma
depression is poo ***hugs*** xxx
LOL, he produces all his own hormones. But seriously, we are talking more and slowly working through this.
Hope you cheer up hun!
HUGS
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