Lovely....sprained my ankle last night while out for a run. Sprained ankle, road rash down other leg and FUCKED my hand up. Great. I am running a fucking marathon in like 5months. This is not what I need.
On a more exciting note-me and some friends are throwing a prom themed party (who doesn't want to go back and do it over?!). Anyway, here is a pic of the dress I ordered. I think I am going to wear it with peep toe ankle boots.

Please tell me you love it as much as I do!!!

OK, so my post last night was a bit ambigious. I will try to explain better but that will have to wait until tomorrow or sometime this week.  I gotta run to the drugstore to take car of my ankle!

Hugs

This broken heart is my own fault. I am letting the man I love and cannot live without slip away. I am a fool. I let my own fears stop me.

Something weird going on....I get so tired and pass the fuck out at like 8:30-9pm and then am up at 2.  And can't fall back to sleep.  I feel good sleeping as hard as I have been and I know thats because of the yoga I have been doing. But I don't get the wake up at 2 thing, like why am I only sleeping for 5hrs? I know I need more than that and maybe if I slept til 4, I wouldn't pass out at 9?
But the weirdest thing is I cannot lose fucking weight. At all. I am writing down EVERY thing that I eat or drink and my diet is not out of control. I am eating well balanced meals, I am having breakfast, I have increased my protein some, I am getting all my veggies, I am exercising. I don't get it. I don't want to starve myself but I will if I have too. I need to lose 15-20lbs off my frame before I run the marathon.
Ok, so I am super digging the yoga I am taking. Its the Bikram yoga and there are a ton of benefits, namely you sweat your fucking ass off so you are detoxing like crazy.  I took this a few years ago but didn't stick with it but I am really loving it this time around and the private time it gives me. Oh yea, it burns about 900cals in one class (class is 90min).
But I need to find the right BALANCE of yoga and running so I am working that out.  I want to do yoga 5x a week but I need to run 5x a week.  And I don't want to overdo it.  I know I like to function in extremes so it is a thin line I am walking here. 
Today my goal is to setup home water delivery with one of those cooler thingys that you can dispense hot or cold.  Small goal but its a good one-better for the environment and me because I will always have water (I always do anyway). 
*sigh* what else is new....my niece is still missing. Almost 3months now. Well, they know where she is but they are waiting for the FBI and police to take her and arrest the men for human trafficking and child prostitution. I just hope they do before the guys decide she is worthless.
I am not sure whats up with my love. He goes so back and forth. He is totally that Katy Perry song-hot and cold. Right now its cold. When I see him next (if not before marathon then when I am there), I am giving an ultimatum. I can't keep going back and forth. And yea, I know, I have said this before. This time I mean it. I am too old for this shit.

Alright, I should work. 

Training is going really well-I have added yoga to the mix and that is supposed to help you improve quite a bit.  I hope to do yoga 3-4 times per week.  Still fat though....

So, I have been writing down EVERYTHING that I eat. It makes it easier to hold yourself accountable.  My eating isn't too bad. And I am adhering to a very strict training plan for marathon.  I am into week 2 of 25.  I am doing it smart this time so I don't injure myself.  I ran/walked a 10k on Halloween and it was honestly my worst running experience ever. It was hot (like 87), there was not enough water, and people were confused about the turn arounds (it was an out and back race vs a loop or straight line). It was awful. I got dehydrated and had no powerade or gatorade. I felt weak and sick. I have never had this happen. I also came up on a small boy who was walking by himself because his mother left him to finish the race. I was concerned about his well-being and spent 25min walking with him (he was honestly the slowest kid on earth-25min to go one mile) and gave him the only water I had. I was worried that he would fall into the bushes and no one would see him.  It put my finish time about 15 or so min past my goal time but thats ok. I would have felt terrible if I had heard some kid got super sick or something and I could have helped.
Halloween was good-went to a couple of bars and then a party.  I was Daisy De La Hoya (rock of love and then daisy of love on VH1).  It was fun. 
Work is crazy right now. I better get back at it.

Oh yea, I am super fat right now.

I AM RUNNING THE BOSTON MARATHON IN APRIL 2010!!!!!

I am so excited! I got selected for a charity program for the marathon! There was no way I would qualify for it timewise so I applied to participate and raise money for charity. My goal is $3500. I already have $1500 so I need to raise $2000, IF ANYONE WOULD LIKE TO DONATE LET ME KNOW-PM ME! It is for the MS Society (and I have MS, hence the reason I applied to their charity program). Next week I should have the info for setting up my personalized webpage through the MS Society and you can donate directly there. Any little bit helps! And yes, I know this is a tough year so please, do not feel any obligation but this something near and dear to my heart (I would love to not have to take shots every other day to try to stop my immune system from attacking my nerves).
(Oh yea, it doesn't hurt that the man I love lives in Boston )

YAY!!!

Well....I survived turning 35. Ha but apparently I don't think I need to work out anymore because my workouts have been shit for the past week and half. I can't figure out my mental block.  I am doing well writing down every bit of food that goes into my mouth.  So, I am going to do some serious soul searching this weekend and figure this shit out. 
Thanks for the bday wishes.  XO

35 tomorrow! Yikes.

Workouts are going well.  Just have to make a few tweaks to the diet but even thats not too bad right now. 

I am getting old. 35 next week. Sometimes, I feel like I am no where in my life: I live with a man I am not in love with, in love with a man 5000miles from me and we can't seem to get anywhere close to each other for more than a few days at a time, I am in a job (that I actually like) but am in a location where I have no chance to move up, I am in a mountain of debt (stupid credit cards) and I hate my hips and thighs. 

Ok, now that is out of the way.....

Happy Wednesday 

I did 7 miles yesterday.  10 tomorrow.  Sundays are going to be yoga days.  Plus oil change and a new headlight and laundry. 
I spoke to my work about a promotion and raise.  I told them that if it doesn't happen soon, I will be leaving.  I didn't tell them exactly what I want as far as money goes but I did say I want to be promoted to IT Director and when we get to talking turkey, I am going to ask for 87-90k plus annual bonus.  But I will have to take over another property and manage all the IT for two places.  It might be worth it.  If they don't do it, I might look to transfer to another place (NYC).  But that would bring me closer to Boston since thats the ultimate goal but right now it is not a good time to be going anywhere unless you have a job in hand!

Coffee, coffee, coffee....