November 20, 2009
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Something weird going on....I get so tired and pass the fuck out at like 8:30-9pm and then am up at 2. And can't fall back to sleep. I feel good sleeping as hard as I have been and I know thats because of the yoga I have been doing. But I don't get the wake up at 2 thing, like why am I only sleeping for 5hrs? I know I need more than that and maybe if I slept til 4, I wouldn't pass out at 9?
But the weirdest thing is I cannot lose fucking weight. At all. I am writing down EVERY thing that I eat or drink and my diet is not out of control. I am eating well balanced meals, I am having breakfast, I have increased my protein some, I am getting all my veggies, I am exercising. I don't get it. I don't want to starve myself but I will if I have too. I need to lose 15-20lbs off my frame before I run the marathon.
Ok, so I am super digging the yoga I am taking. Its the Bikram yoga and there are a ton of benefits, namely you sweat your fucking ass off so you are detoxing like crazy. I took this a few years ago but didn't stick with it but I am really loving it this time around and the private time it gives me. Oh yea, it burns about 900cals in one class (class is 90min).
But I need to find the right BALANCE of yoga and running so I am working that out. I want to do yoga 5x a week but I need to run 5x a week. And I don't want to overdo it. I know I like to function in extremes so it is a thin line I am walking here.
Today my goal is to setup home water delivery with one of those cooler thingys that you can dispense hot or cold. Small goal but its a good one-better for the environment and me because I will always have water (I always do anyway).
*sigh* what else is new....my niece is still missing. Almost 3months now. Well, they know where she is but they are waiting for the FBI and police to take her and arrest the men for human trafficking and child prostitution. I just hope they do before the guys decide she is worthless.
I am not sure whats up with my love. He goes so back and forth. He is totally that Katy Perry song-hot and cold. Right now its cold. When I see him next (if not before marathon then when I am there), I am giving an ultimatum. I can't keep going back and forth. And yea, I know, I have said this before. This time I mean it. I am too old for this shit.Alright, I should work.
Comments (5)
hmmm not sure whats happening with your body hun, sometimes it takes awhile before it kicks in I would say try to be paitent, measure inches rather than weight, chances are you will see a change there.Me are weird like that they never seem to know what they want often if my chap is all over the place something is going on with work or in his mind and he's worried about things...just let him know you are there for him xxx
i get that way too..like pass out at 9 pm on a friday!!! think it's from getting up so early..like 4:30 am from my cat..then my alarm goes off at 5:35 am for work..That yoga sounds great! wish I could join you. It is soo funny how cats run around with the plastic bags. It makes me laugh indeed too. That is so effing awful about your niece. you've got to be kidding me!! It makes me sick what people do.and with kids!!so the guys thathave her have been found?? They need to be tortured, then shot. where was she taken from??when she dissapeared.
on another note..i swear you are like me..body stubborn as hell!! to lose weight. I understand completely. (((((HUGS))))
hoping you are ok xxx
I have to thank you for your comment..It makes a difference and helped me ..yeah..even us grown women still get freaked out.. ha! (((Hugs))))
LOVE YOU! Just wanted to let you know...Happy thanksgiving. I am giving thanks for YOU!
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