Something weird going on....I get so tired and pass the fuck out at like 8:30-9pm and then am up at 2.  And can't fall back to sleep.  I feel good sleeping as hard as I have been and I know thats because of the yoga I have been doing. But I don't get the wake up at 2 thing, like why am I only sleeping for 5hrs? I know I need more than that and maybe if I slept til 4, I wouldn't pass out at 9?
But the weirdest thing is I cannot lose fucking weight. At all. I am writing down EVERY thing that I eat or drink and my diet is not out of control. I am eating well balanced meals, I am having breakfast, I have increased my protein some, I am getting all my veggies, I am exercising. I don't get it. I don't want to starve myself but I will if I have too. I need to lose 15-20lbs off my frame before I run the marathon.
Ok, so I am super digging the yoga I am taking. Its the Bikram yoga and there are a ton of benefits, namely you sweat your fucking ass off so you are detoxing like crazy.  I took this a few years ago but didn't stick with it but I am really loving it this time around and the private time it gives me. Oh yea, it burns about 900cals in one class (class is 90min).
But I need to find the right BALANCE of yoga and running so I am working that out.  I want to do yoga 5x a week but I need to run 5x a week.  And I don't want to overdo it.  I know I like to function in extremes so it is a thin line I am walking here. 
Today my goal is to setup home water delivery with one of those cooler thingys that you can dispense hot or cold.  Small goal but its a good one-better for the environment and me because I will always have water (I always do anyway). 
*sigh* what else is new....my niece is still missing. Almost 3months now. Well, they know where she is but they are waiting for the FBI and police to take her and arrest the men for human trafficking and child prostitution. I just hope they do before the guys decide she is worthless.
I am not sure whats up with my love. He goes so back and forth. He is totally that Katy Perry song-hot and cold. Right now its cold. When I see him next (if not before marathon then when I am there), I am giving an ultimatum. I can't keep going back and forth. And yea, I know, I have said this before. This time I mean it. I am too old for this shit.

Alright, I should work. 

Training is going really well-I have added yoga to the mix and that is supposed to help you improve quite a bit.  I hope to do yoga 3-4 times per week.  Still fat though....

So, I have been writing down EVERYTHING that I eat. It makes it easier to hold yourself accountable.  My eating isn't too bad. And I am adhering to a very strict training plan for marathon.  I am into week 2 of 25.  I am doing it smart this time so I don't injure myself.  I ran/walked a 10k on Halloween and it was honestly my worst running experience ever. It was hot (like 87), there was not enough water, and people were confused about the turn arounds (it was an out and back race vs a loop or straight line). It was awful. I got dehydrated and had no powerade or gatorade. I felt weak and sick. I have never had this happen. I also came up on a small boy who was walking by himself because his mother left him to finish the race. I was concerned about his well-being and spent 25min walking with him (he was honestly the slowest kid on earth-25min to go one mile) and gave him the only water I had. I was worried that he would fall into the bushes and no one would see him.  It put my finish time about 15 or so min past my goal time but thats ok. I would have felt terrible if I had heard some kid got super sick or something and I could have helped.
Halloween was good-went to a couple of bars and then a party.  I was Daisy De La Hoya (rock of love and then daisy of love on VH1).  It was fun. 
Work is crazy right now. I better get back at it.

Oh yea, I am super fat right now.