Hey hun, I haven't been around here much lately and just wanted to check if you were doing ok. Why is it that we always make our mood dependent on how we feel? And why do we go for the quick fix and go on a diet rather than work on the underlying issues, and reflect on why we don't let ourselves decide on how we feel rather than having it dictated by our thighs, waists, butts and whatever? How come that some of the most intelligent women are trying to adhere to stupid modelling standards that feminists believe are only there to make women weak as they obsess about their weight rather than focusing on what is really important in life? It makes me sad to hear that such a smart and caring person like yourself is entangled in all of this mess and although I cannot drag you out of it I am trying to appeal to the strong and intelligent woman in you to not go for the easy way and starve, but go the hard way and accept your body and work on the causes rather than the symptoms. Don't give up, even though you have been suffering for many years, recovery is possible.
Love, Sophie