December 31, 2008
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HAPPY NEW YEAR....sorta. I am going to have the same tired ass resolutions. *sigh* Will I ever learn? No?! Ok. So, I was telling one of my friends about the beginning of my love/hate relationship with anorexia and it started in Jan 1988. I was 13yrs old. My friends and I were in the lunch room at school discussing the Valentine's dance coming up and what we were going to wear (we were dressing alike)-boxer shorts with black biker type shorts under (it was the 80's mind you) and a batman t-shirt. What stands out the most was looking at my thighs....and being absolutely disgusted and mortified. I decided right then and there that something had to change. Boy, did it ever. I had always had a strange relationship with food as it was (extremely picky) but things got downright ugly between me and food. To this day-food is winning. Fucker.
Anyway, thats part of my sad story....waawaa baby. So, take a wild guess at what my new years resolution is-yep, lose weight. Starve myself til I am happy.Cheers
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I remember too...when I was 14 I really started comparing my thighs, legs to others..and always always wanted to get skinnier..though I was thin in retrospect of course..but I tried at 14, 15, 16 to get skinnier all the time... at 16 especially to get my hipbones to show abit. I looked awesome in th ebikini..oh i tried to though.. weird how it all starts so young. no one ever even told me I looked fat.. I just loved the way the skinniest girls looked..and of course felt better skinny and got the boys attention more..the skinnier I got..anyhow.. happy effin starvin new year! LOL.. : ) This damn food keeps winning over me too! can I just please avoid it..tomorrow we can try, right? chat later!
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Happy New Year!!! <3
I was 13 when I started too.... It was my stomach more than anything else for me... I was 4'10", 85 lbs and I thought I was fat... *sighs*
Anyways take care!!
I hope 2009 is a great year for you!!
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Happy new year, sweetie. My resolution is to stop purging once and for all...we'll see how long that lasts. I hope we have the strength to stick to what we promised ourselves.
my thighs were always a source of pure disgust for me. screw resolutions, but yeah, mine is the same as yours.
Hugs!!!!!
i love you just for you angel...xxx
come on over and see my kitties!
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