I don't know if it goes away, we have to block it.  If I don't be careful, before I know it I will have a 4th husband that is another version of the last 3.  Geesh! what am I doing wrong?  Seriously, I don't see myself as a super-hottie-sex-pot, but dudes do.  Then they realize I am a super-awesome person too.  So they have the best of both worlds, till the other shoe drops and all of a sudden, in their heads, I become a adultress.  I really don't get it.  I have never even cheated on a BF, let alone a husband, I am the most dedicated bitch on the planet.  Maybe I need to find a dude that doesn't think I am a sex pot....I am not conceited, I dont think I am a sexpot, but even the 72  year old dude in my department told me last week that I am the most attractive woman in our building.  Why, why can't I be the hardest working most talented woman in our building?  Dudes can't see me as a person & I wanna be healthy & fit for me, not them.  I am a freakin Jessica rabbit .. Iam not ba, I am just drawn that way..... I think if I get a new job, I will try to be frumpy.... or a bitch, something has got to give......

enuf of me ranting on your page, but you know me....

Baby..... if i am hearing this right, you are moving across the world with a man you don't love, away from a man you do.... man! totally sounds like a mess I would get myself into.  Heck, Hint:  I am counting the days til an unwanted relationship selfdestructs intead of having the balls to just 'end it'.  I am such a pussy!  If you are being a pussy you gotta do something, seriously.  If I got this right, you don't want to move or be with the man you are moving with ....typical Pryncess behavior.  You may have to 'do something'  if this is the case.  You may have to bite the bullet & be strong.  I may missunderstand, I have been gone, but I have read your past few entries and I am getting that you don't want to go ... or him for that matter.  I think I will go back & re-read. I would hate to be completly on the wrong page!