January 21, 2009
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He won't leave me alone. I have told him over and over. I almost feel as if it is some sort of joke. How can this be? I wanted this for so long and now...I can't take it. I am doing my best to resist it. He keeps asking me to come see him. I almost bought a ticket. ALMOST. Then I snapped out of it-its like he hypnotizes me or something-I know, stupid. I blocked him from my IM's and email and phone. I told him that I absolutely adore him but that I cannot do this. I don't know how long til I break. Fuck it all.
Forgot to update on my progress. Its ok. Nothing like violently shitting your brains out to make you put things in perspective. Ha! Down another 1.5 since last week. I wish you could pick where the shit comes from-I would definitely choose thighs. I am on an ankle obsession though lately. I am worried about cankles.
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Girl..stay STRONG! I know you can do this, if it's really what you want. Is there any reason to see him? Could it be a good thing or are you just hung up? Give it time and it will get easier.
As for cankles, I have them and I hate them.
And if it were up to me? I'd pick thighs as well...
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